Hmph.

Maybe I make myself too reachable.. Maybe I need to be doing more releasing than tweeting, more writing than typing and more work in general..

But at the same time..

ALL I've been doing has been work..

I just feel like I can be doing more.. I guess.

(short but sweet)

- Graphik

Trouble On My Mind

I've been learning lately that I feel WAY better off just being alone. Something in my head is just mellow and settled when I'm alone.. Thoughts are better, more vivid, and much more together. This could be because of my anxiety.. I don't know. I'm not sure. I ALWAYS want to be around HER, though. Never does a moment go by when I'm not missing her.. It sucks.

But yeah. All this is on my mind as I hop in the booth to record a verse for my boy Philosophy. We honestly just keep making hits after hits.. Yeah.

Swag me the f*ck out.

- Graphik

Pleasant.

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This just put me in the GREATEST mood ever, haha. She just blew me away. Love her voice and she's very cute.. Wish I knew the proper song and artist name, though. She listens to Lil B & Kanye West as well. Her music taste is >>>>>> hahaha..

It's 7am and I just finished talking with the love of my life. So glad we're getting things back to normal, that old shit didn't feel right.. At all. It's always been 3.12.10 though, don't ever forget that.

This blog post shall be short and sweet.. ONLY because I have some new music to write and I wanna start on that before my body gives in to sleep.

I love y'all if y'all love me, holla.

~ Graphik

P.S. - Operation #FreeGraphik worked. Aunt gave in and let me off punishment ASAP.. She's still a selfish monster, I love her with all my heart but that's the truth. *shrug* Maybe I'm too real to be loved... Deadass...

That shit cray.

Excuse the humor in the title, but this is actually a very serious post. Since there are some adults out there that don't know how to be considerate nor do they know how to act their age, but instead of changing their ways they continue being legitimate assholes to their children and slander them - even if they know that their child is definitely not currently in the mind state to handle family problems, considering that they've been attending therapy for a bit... I won't be around much.

Basically, read that as - "Since there are some adults out there that don't know how to be considerate nor do they know how to act their age, I won't be around much".

Just another example of how my 'parents' are far from their fucking title. I won't add much detail, not much else to say. Just know that if I'm gone for a while.. This is the reason why.

'Punishment'. I don't even consider it that, I consider this just a tyrant acting out her ways as the Hitler of this household... Was that too much? I don't give a FUCK.

#FreeGraphik

~ Graphik

Make Me Proud

Decided to just leave this here to sort of have it in 'my records', haha.. Give it a listen.

3am.

Most people that complain about mornings are people that have to wake up extremely early. Mainly workers and school students. After being out of school for so long, I've realized that life is MUCH easier... Not on some "drop out, kids it's cool" type shit. Just being real. Right now I'm bound by no real responsibilities except for the ones I uphold myself to. i.e; working on music, attending therapy, checking in and spending time with my girlfriend. That's about it. That's really all. I feel.. Free. I schedule things on my own time, do things on my own time, and I know that if I choose NOT to do something it only affects me. Feels good knowing that if I honestly decided to screw up MY life I wouldn't ((((financially)))) be screwing up anyone else.

It isn't all it's cracked up to be, though. You feel more alone than ever.. Yet, that's exactly how I've always wanted to be.. Secretly. It's weird. I don't think I'll ever even understand it myself. As long as life goes on, I'ma live it.. Contrary to popular belief; I'm not suicidal. Thoughts of it, 2 past attempts, but my head is cleaner than ever now.. And NO therapy didn't make it this way. I took baby steps towards this new attitude and I don't want anyone else taking credit but myself.

"Through all the bullshit, I'm still standin' tall.. Feel like the haters been plottin' me on my downfall".

That is all.

~ Graphik

"Nothing At All"

Another Friday, another night. More music, more flight. I love how I tend to blog when I'm MOST comfortable.. Just shows how positive my future blog posts will be, right? Lol. Weekend, as usual, is filled with NONSTOP music.. Music is my life.. Speaking on that, lots of people judge me for it. "You have no life", or "You'll never amount to anything" is all I've been hearing.. FROM THEM, it means nothing. But once I start to think this way myself.. Then it becomes a problem. I've been doubting myself A LOT lately, but I will never quit. Just starting to feel less.. Artistic-y? I'm overwhelmed with life right now, so it's slowly taking it's toll.. Another reason why I dropped THIS...

  Nothing At All by Graphinitymusic


..Just something to explain my situation better. Listen; If you love me, I love real. Real talk.


In OTHER news, my homie Petar sent me some skating footage and.. Well.. Check it.





**Note: Typed this with a BROKEN keyboard.. F*ck yeah.